i really wonder sometimes.
if people ever noticed the little section at the end of the post.
the little section which has lyrics most of the times.
there are reasons they're there no?
weeeelll, they're not always lyrics.
yup but google most of it and you'll probably discover they're lyrics!
so now you know.
you gonna scroll through all my post eehhhh?
i can tell :9
i've been wanting to blog about rocs and funfair.
buuut. my list of memorable quotes are no where to be found :/
hmm.
i have a rather strange feeling that i'm being avoided.
and my dreams are taking a huge turn.
could it be that something's happening?
you know my dreams sometime come true? :b
like, ever though it may not entirely be the same but it's along the line?
yup, so i keep my dreams really close.
dreams do give me inspiration too!
cause sometimes they can really be whacky.
and quote quote "chris has weird dreams".
yup that's what happens when you appear in my dreams ;)

-

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible... the rain can fall
Only when its over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead.

sheesh.
chris is feelin' preeeettyyyy lazy.
i was about to blog about ROCs and funfair
but.
maybe tomorrow? :D

-

you're the kind of friend who always bends when i'm broken
like remember when
you took my heart and put it back together again

"Okay girls, today is the last time I'm going to talk to you about your results as a form teacher. Some of you made it to the top band of the cohort, some not so good."
mrs chan handed us our results one by one.
according to register number.
yes. register number.
as usual i am the last.
last.
christelle beside me, with cheryl and felicia got their results already.
mine was coming oh so very slowly.
"chrissy i'm scared."
"okay, hold on dear."
and then there were sudden outbursts of squealing.
and again.
and again.
and again.
yong mei xin christabel's result slip was the last of the stack.
i just sat there, alone. trying not to cry even before the result slip was in my hands.
just when i need a friend to hug, they're all jumping up and down.
greaaaat.
when i got my slip, i read it.
over and over and over again.
"we are happy to off the 8 subject combination to Yong Mei Xin Christabel."
my overall average score was 0.18% below criteria.
my rank average was 0.17% below criteria.
screw it i hate crying.
it makes my breathing funny.
like i'm hyperventilating you know? just not like that.
so i ran.
how i wish i could run away from reality.
i'm just going to be sad and depressed and emo for a while.
to flush all my sadness out.
so when i go for ROCs,
i will have fun.
nothing will ever, ever stop me.

-

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

22 October is the new official worst day of my life.
Chris the Great has fallen.

该死

EXAMS ARE OVEEEEEEEER!
this time, it's real :D
recently had physics, bio, chinese paper 2 and listening and ART!
physics sucked.
we had a crossword puzzle question
and i didn't know what a variable resister's name was
somehow i kept thinking it started with an A.
then comes along the word/phrase/letters "ALU"
serious.
so in the end, a variable resister which was supposed to be RHEOSTAT
became ALUNATOR. or something like that.
and the high resistance thing which was supposed to be NICHROME
became ALUMRINE.
smart. i know.
bio was okaaaay.
CHINESE PAPER 2 WAS AWESOME! I READ THE PASSAGE BEFORE :D
HAHA it was in a newspaper. the little section for passages like those ((((:
and then on the last day of exams.
everyone on facebook was like
"CURSE YOU ART"
"LIKE THIS IF YOU DON'T LIKE ART"
"STUPID ART"
and stuff like that.
surprisingly, no one cared about chinese listening. hmm.
and mrs chan didn't want to accept my art folio ;_;
so i had to bring this giant rectangle back home.
made me look like an art student though xD

since it was the last day of exams,
everyone was going out!
except yours truly and a dear friend.
so the date-less decided to help mrs chan in the fun fair decoration.
let me tell you it was NOT FUN AT ALL.
founder's day decoration was much much funner. and less tiring.
we had to twirl vines and stuff. cause the fun fair theme this year was...
"all things bright and beautiful"
or something like that.
like you know, all things, animals, jungle, forest, see the connection?
yeah.
SO ON THE FUNFAIR DAY, YOU SEE A VINE WITH 3 LEAVES PER SECTION, THAT'S PROBABLY MINE.
HAHA. don't ask :x

exams are over and there are lots of things to look forward to!
1. ROCs! first thing in my list :9
2. Party at Anne's!
3. Christelle's belated birthday party! since her birthday was during exam period hehs.
4. Watching Imagine That!
5. Probably alot more :D

-

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

EXAMS ARE OVEERRRRRRRRRR!
or at least half of it anyways.
yup yup yup!
goodbye english, geog, history, math, lit and a third of chineseeeee!
hehs.
geog sucked.
i chose the hard question, and i didn't even finish it.
weeeelll, i thought i finished it but it looked too short to be finished.
I SHOULD HAVE CHOSEN THE EASY ONEEEE. but it was too late to change.
and for history.
whoa.
it's insane man.
lit was...okay. i'm not so sure about it.
chinese paper 1 was okay.
except for the fact that i thought the name of the guy meant "right down a name".
RAH RAH RAH
and math.
math math math.
I GOT A GOOD FEELINGGGGG :D
hehe. waking up at 5am does have benefits!
i didn't know how to do some questions but if i counted the marks i have left
if i wasn't careless...
I WOULD HAVE ABOUT 80% :D
haha.
it'll probably pull up all my other low marks.
i hope i get triple scienceeee D:

oh and i realised that jumping into the waterfall wasn't such a good idea.
leeches will suck your blood.
and you can't pull them off cause your skin will come off too.
so you'll have to wait for them to suck your blood and fall off on their own.
blegh.
belicia told me D:

-

A SECTION SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO NATALISH
Natalie was a girl so very passionate about english.
She even disowned her name during the english exam and wrote her name as Natalish.
Her love for english is without bounderies.
GOOD JOB NAT :D

-

when i receive my results, you will pat me on the head and say well done, right?
if i do well, you will be proud of me...right?

AHHHH I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
papapaaa.
we had english paper and 2 today.
and my gut feeling told me that it was going to be persuasive speech.
the thing that i really didn't like the most, AND DIDN'T STUDIED.
GAAAHHHHH.
suaaayy luhs.
i need to study for history blegh.
but no one has notes! D:
dadadaaa.
mrs chan talked to us about ROCs today/yesterday/i-can't-remember-what-day
hehs.
we have a 6 hour drive in the early morning. yuck.
we get to stay in a 4-star hotel. :D:D:D
we can wear shorts as long as we have great legs! that's what she really said!
we're going to hike to a waterfall! i hope we can jump in (((:
I CAN'T WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVERRRR!

07OCT-WED-Chinese Paper and Geography
08OCT-THU-History and Literature
12OCT-MON-Physics and Biology
13OCT-TUE-Chinese Paper 2
14OCT-WED-Chinese Listening and Art
15OCT-THU-Marking day
16OCT-FRI-Marking day a.k.a PARTY AT CHRIS' HOUSEEEEEEEEEE <3

-

'cause i've been waiting all my life
for someone just like you
but you're it, you're the ultimate you.